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Friday, February 25, 2011

87 Days... and counting


Patience is waiting. Not passively waiting. That is laziness. But to keep going when the going is hard and slow – that is patience… 


Today is the 87th day since my first surgery. I still have my wound vac on, and although I feel it is getting better, it has been an extremely slow process. As I was thinking I was going on the right track, my doctor has again made the decision to put me back on IV antibiotics starting today. I feel like I take one step forward and two steps back. So frustrating. This decision was made as my blood work is still showing infection in my system. This whole thing has really taken a lot out of me. A surgery that was suppose to be fairly simple and about 6 weeks recovery is now at 12 and 1/2 weeks and counting. I will probably have the wound vac for another month (my goal to have it off by my birthday has diminished). Then I will be able to start physical therapy which will be another few months. I have a lot of work ahead of me as since the wound has not closed I have not been able to do any therapy. I have very little range of motion in my knee and it is going to take some time to get that back. I find myself in very dark stages and these stages come more as time goes on, although I try my hardest to smile on the outside, inside my spirit is slowly fading. I hope that this whole ordeal ends soon and I can get back to my normal life. Right now that seems so far out of the realm of possibilities.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Long day...

Everyone has his day and some days last longer than others.



The longer I sit here unable to walk, the slower the days seem to drag by. Today I sat here most of the day watching Sammi sleep on the bed beside me. I did get up and walk around some, found some food, exercised my leg. I received my new Pampered Chef Consultant kit today, but it is so heavy and bulky I can not really do much with it, one because there is no room in here and two because I just don't yet have the strength. I did decide to schedule a Scentsy launch party, as I feel I am struggling getting people interested in having a party for Scentsy or Pampered Chef. So I am excited about that. If you are reading this post you are welcome to come to my launch party on March 5th and Madeline's Grill in Redmond, Or visit my website http://vickigamboa.scentsy.us/ I learned tonight my daughter and son-in-law will be over this weekend for a longer time than I thought so that makes me really happy, I can not wait to spend time with my little girl. I miss her so much. She can help me organize my Scentsy and give me some ideas, and I can share my Pampered Chef with her. I think she might be bringing her dogs too, so Bella will have someone to play with. She has been so lonely since the neighbor dog has been gone on vacation. I have sat here for 2 and 1/2 months depressed at times, lonely at times, angry and times, but I am so happy right now anticipating the visit from my daughter. I can hardly wait.

Monday, February 14, 2011

My Dog...A Heartbeat at My Feet

Dogs are miracles with paws


Sammi my little Dachshund has been with me for almost 8 years. She has been with me through the good times and the bad. Sammi has been with me in the lowest and darkest times of my life when no one else was there. One of the great things I love about Sammi is that she has always been able to read me so well. If I am sad, she cuddles, If I am happy she celebrates, If I am mad she stays away. She always knows when I just need a cuddle, and there is no other that I would rather cuddle with. About a week before my first surgery in December I noticed that Sammi was hurting, and not moving well, as the days passed by she slowly lost the ability to use her back legs. It broke my heart watching her dragging herself across the floor. I took her to the vet hoping for the best, but discovered the worst. For an unknown reason, Sammi was permanently paralyzed. My heart was broken and while dealing with my own health issues I continued to care for her the best I could. Ignoring the comments from those who do not understand the love between a dog and her owner, (those who thought I should have her put to sleep) I looked into getting her a wheel chair. I had heard about dog chairs before, but did not know much about them or how they worked. I found a great gentleman in Prineville who makes customized wheel chairs for dogs. A week after she was paralyzed, Sammi was in her new wheel chair and learning to adjust. She now uses it when she plays outside, but has become very well at scooting around the house and she even occasionally gets up on her back legs and moves them, I am praying that the therapy with the wheel chair is helping her get the use of her back legs again, however not getting my hopes up as to not be disappointed. Three weeks ago, it was brought to my attention that Sammi was not responding well to sight, as I continued to watch her and do my own tests, I have determined that she is now at least partially blind. I have not had the opportunity to take her to the vet to look at options as my own health has not yet allowed that. What I do know, is that Sammi is very happy, she hears my voice and gets excited, she runs and barks in her wheel chair, and she still snuggles with me when she knows I need to be snuggled. Unless you have truly experienced the love of a dog and what they can bring into your life, you will not understand the great hurdles and sacrifices a person will go through to keep their pet safe and happy. Don't judge me for making the decisions that I have made by keeping Sammi alive and enjoying her companionship, no one but me and her will understand our relationship the decisions I make. Sammi is very happy, loves to play, loves to cuddle and loves to go bye bye. Until the Lord decides it is time for her to go I will continue to do whatever it takes to keep her happy and comfortable.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Healing of the Body and the Mind

The trouble with always trying to preserve the health of the body is that it is so difficult to do without destroying the health of the mind.  ~G.K. Chesterton



On December 1st, I had what was to be a semi common knee surgery. Although I expected some pain and about 6 weeks total for healing, I felt that the surgery was needed as my knee cap was not aligned properly, therefor hurting when I walked. Two days after my surgery I was diagnosed with a Pulmonary Embolism, my heart dropped as I was so scared to think I had blood clots in my lungs. I was put on several different medications and sent home with pain medicine, blood clot medicine, and oxygen. Though the healing process was slow, my lungs began to heal, however my knee would would not close up. The day after Christmas, after a night of headaches, extreme chills, and sweats, I called my doctor concerned about a possible infection. I met him at the Emergency room for him to just look at it. I was immediately admitted into the hospital and scheduled for emergency surgery that night for a staph infection that had set into my knee. Waking up from this surgery, I could feel the depression setting in, knowing that this additional surgery was going to set my healing process back a few more weeks. After one night in the hospital and a load of antibiotics poured into me to kill the infection, it was discovered that I was allergic to the antibiotic and was now in acute Kidney failure. Again my heart dropped and depression grew stronger. I remained in the hospital for 2 more days and was then sent home with PIC line and daily IV antibiotics to heal my knee wound as well as medication for my kidneys, which are now back to normal function. On January 7th, after a routine visit to the orthopedic, I was again told I needed immediate surgery on my knee again as the wound was not closing and was susceptible to more infection. It was decided that the best way to close the wound which was approximately 4 inches long, 2 inches deep, and 2 inches across was to use a wound vac. I went into surgery that evening to have the wound flushed again and the vac placed. Since this surgery it has been a very slow recovery. My wound vac gets changed 3 times per week which is very painful, however the wound itself is now approximately 2 and 1/2 inches long, 1/2 inch deep, and 1 inch wide. I have been in constant pain and unable to perform the daily basics that most people take for granted, alone. For a what was suppose to be a small surgery and 6 week recovery I am now at 3 surgeries, blood clots, kidney failure, staff infection, and 11 weeks out in recovery with at least 4 more weeks of the wound vac which is connected to me 24/7 and has to go wherever I go. My IV antibiotic will end this week, however they will continue to keep the PIC port in for the weekly blood draws as I go onto an oral antibiotic. I have continued to slowly go into a deeper state of depression as can be imagined with the set backs that I have had. The silver lining is that the wound is getting smaller, I am coming off of the IV and I have been able to learn to maneuver a walker to get around rather than just the wheelchair. I want to thank all of my friends and family who have been there to support me during this whole ordeal and who will continue to help and support as this journey continues. I know I am not the easiest person to deal with in normal circumstances, let alone with the detours that I have had to take with this injury. I will try to keep you posted up to date as I continue to heal and I appreciate the continued prayers for my healing.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Am I over doing it? I don't think so...

As a child my family's menu consisted of two choices:  take it or leave it.  ~Buddy Hackett




As written before I became a Scentsy consultant, well I am now officially a Pampered Chef consultant as well. I normally would not put myself into this position, but I am selling two products that I truly love and and believe in. Being in the kitchen is a favorite past time of mine, and I feel that Pampered Chef products are the only way to go. My plan is that if I am able to be successful in these two businesses, I will then not have to wait for a top paying job to make a living and can go in a more entry level position and still be able to survive. I am excited to begin this journey and put myself out there to meet new people and become successful. Wish me luck ! And if you need anything from either company, be sure to contact me!

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Scentsy Consultant!





I did not realize how long it has been since I have blogged. So much has been going on. I will try to update this week nightly. Today I decided to become a Scentsy consultant. Scentsy is basically a variety of wickless candles. A safe alternative to hot candles which if left alone can cause fire damage. There are hundreds of varieties of aromas to choose from and warmers of all sizes to fulfill anyones needs. I have chosen to be a consultant and start selling this product for a few reasons. One is I love the product and all the different options available. Becoming a consultant was a non expensive way to start a company and hopefully earn a little money.  I have been unable to do much over the past couple months because of my knee issues (different post) and felt it was time for me to get my mind focused on something productive. I will become a Pampered Chef Hostess in a week or two as well, so if you are in need of anything for your home or gifts for a friend or loved one, contact me! This adventure is really outside of my comfort box however still looking forward to becoming successful with both businesses and meeting new people. Please visit my web site or contact me with any questions or needs!

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